Yesterday I came across this prayer from author Brennan Manning, a fellow recovering alcoholic. I loved it and thought you might, too.
“Jesus, my Brother and Lord, I pray as I write these words for the grace to be truly poor before you,
to recognize and accept my weakness and humanness,
to forgo the indecent luxury of self-hatred,
to celebrate your mercy and trust in your power when I’m at my weakest,
to rely on your love no matter what I may do,
to seek no escapes from my innate poverty,
to accept loneliness when it comes instead of seeking substitutes,
to live peacefully without clarity or assurance,
to stop grandstanding and trying to get attention,
to do the truth quietly without display,
to let the dishonesties in my life fade away,
to belong no more to myself,
to not desert my post when I give the appearance of staying at it,
to accept the limitations and full responsibility of being a human being—really human and really poor in Christ our Lord.”
I particularly resonate right now with the line, “to do the truth quietly without display.” I love the idea of “doing the truth,” because I am so used to thinking of truth as something I know in my head, not something I do. Kind of like how I used to overvalue beliefs (head) and undervalue trust (heart).
I also loved the phrase, “the indecent luxury of self-hatred.” It’s so easy to assume that self-loathing is somehow a virtue when it’s really a self-centered indulgence that makes you less inclined to deny or sacrifice yourself.
What lines stand out to you? Maybe you could claim one of them as your prayer or mantra for today.